I need to quit knawing on my lip. Just sayin'.

I am so blessed.

I haven't blogged in too long, but I have a lot that's been going on and for whatever reason I haven't felt the need to put things into written words.
But here I go!!

Valentine's Day came and went and the few days before it, I was busy trying to suppress my disappointment with the fact Miko would be on a trip with his parents to Virginia for the weekend. Even though neither of us are all that invested in the holiday, it was still a little bit of a downer to know that I wouldn't even get to see him. Fortunately, my boyfriend is amazing and wonderful. :) He surprised me by coming straight to my house after he flew back in, and he had an orchid the size of a kindergartner with him. There I was, eating a plain yam at the kitchen table, when I see someone walking up the steps to my house. I felt so happy that almost exploded. A very good day.

More recently, my Mock Trial team, which I enjoy so so much, has become not only record-scoring district champs but state qualifiers to boot! We had regional competition this past Friday, and for the first time I was given the opportunity to take the stand against an attorney who, despite talking so slow I doubted her brain function, was actually pretty gritty. I got a chance to really use my brain and we won! I can't wait to milk my school for all the money it's worth in hotel and classy dining expenses. And the best part is, I get to keep wearing my professional adult clothes!!! Woowoo!

Hmmm, what else? I started running? That is worthy of blogging about I think. I've been running about two miles or so whenever time and the weather permits, and it's felt really good. I am still overcoming my issue with imagining what I've recently eaten looks like sloshing around in my belly, but the running is swell so far.
Track starts sometime this week which is very scary, but I am hopeful. Maybe I will throw discuss further than 16 feet this year! Considering my stick arms, I doubt it, but you never know! (Plus, it is fortunate that I actually COMPETE in running races and long jump. But discus is my ambition, I'm telling you!)

Today was a good day because I got to have Miko over and we had a lot of fun. He and Ethan and I built a huge fort in our living room and then we watched the Olympics and Whip It. Then, we ate way more ice cream than I normally would have, but when he is with me I label it "special occasion". Although, that is becoming a problem the more and more I'm allowed to see him.
Also:
MY DAD DOESN'T WANT TO LET US GO TO AMISH COUNTRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I haven't mentioined it in this thing but I LOVE Amish Country. I love their outfits, and their work ethics, and their clotheslines, and their baked goods, and they're cheese/meat/apple butter, and their wooden items, and I love having picnics in their gazebos. It is positively my DREAM date. I have my outfit already picked out! And you know what, I WILL make out with my boyfriend there. Because I like kissing him. And I like Amish Country, and he won't be here to kiss for much longer.
SUCK ON THAT, DAD. SUCK ON THAT.

He (meaning my dad) has been particularly infuriating lately. The more he degrades and ignores my momma the more I would so love to send him out to live in a double wide somewhere sort of far away. I don't want to hurt him and I appreciate what he's been able to give me with his paycheck, truly I do. But I don't want to live with him. It is unfortunate, and it makes me so sad to say it, but it's true.

I am tired, so I'm going to go lay in my covers and think about my day. It was a good day.

P.S. I only ever blog before bed because that is really the only time I have the, well, time, (<---seemingly too many commas...) to sit around and do it. I just didn't want to make it feel like too much of a reoccurring theme. neways. Night!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Psha.

No one should ever only wear one color.

I have two major accomplishments today!!!!!
1: I drove to Reading, Cincinnati like a pro!
2: I bought a prom dress while I was there!
How cool is that?! I bought a $200 dollar prom dress in 45 min! During my drive I went 80 mph (!!!) and merged like 40 times! I didn't even come close to wrecking. I was soooo proud of myself, as I feel this is a very big accomplishment for someone my age. On top of that, I think this accomplishment will really help me when I need to drive to Columbus to see the love of my life.

Who....by the way is in, as he calls it, Virgina. His parents are considering moving there, which would be cool if he was able to go to school here. He'd be far enough from them and close to me (cool, right?), and able go to the school he wants to be in. We will have to see how it pans out.

I spent yesterday afternoon with Cynthia eating Mexican food (yessssss!!!!) and doing a puzzle and watching Grey's Anatomy. It was fun. It felt...normal. Like the kind of thing a 16 year old would do! But also I wasn't uncomfortable and I didn't want to go home the whole time I was there. And that is an accomplishment unto itself, since I'm such a homebody. Does it mean something is wrong with me that I always want to be at my house? Or that the only person I feel totally perfect with is Miko? It's SOUNDS bad that the only person I want to hang out with is Miko, but before he was around, I just didn't want to hang out with anyone at all. I form such intense bonds with people that I couldn't possibly form them with just anyone. I'm picky about it because it's a BIG deal when it happens. And it is 100% unintentional, that's just my nature. So yeah, I want to be with my boyfriend more than anyone else all the time. And I prefer to be at home when I'm with him. I guess if that makes me weird, oh well. Can't help it.

I have three more days left before I have to do a single thing. I will get to see Miko on Monday and we will watch fun movies and I will kiss his cheek a million times and be happy. I'm glad no one reads this because I know I sound like a psycho gf, omg. This is the stuff that goes on in my brain and I'm not editing out how often my boyfriend comes up because you aren't supposed to have to edit your brain functions on a blog (particularly a blog that no one reads).

Also, I just saw a woman sitting in a pink room, on a pink couch, with all pick clothes on, holding a dog that seems to have been dyed pink (animal abuse?). You cannot tell me that anybody loves one color THAT MUCH. If they do....I just don't know.

I'm tired and I haven't even had a shower!
So goodnight!
(Sometimes I wonder why I say that since I am not saying goodnight to anyone in particular, but whatevs.((I like to use texting slang just whenever just for kicks.)) Yeah.

Yesterday I broke bones with my own two hands.

-Is your life drama-filled enough to be in a reality show?
Goodness no.
-Have you ever kissed someone you weren't dating?
Nope.
-When someone says your most recent ex's name what do you think?
I don't have an ex. Cool!
-Do you like falling asleep to the sound of the rain?
I just like falling asleep, quite frankly.
-Have you ever just laid down outside and stared at the stars?
I don't think soo....wait YES! I have! It was during a snow storm and I thought, "I bet that would look so cool from the ground" and so I laid out there for like twenty minutes and then I got cold and came in.
-If the last person you kissed wanted to kiss you again would you let them?
Nah.
JUST KIDDING!
Of course I would.
-Who was the last person who gave you advice?
Hm, Miko's mom? I think she was telling me how to help my orchid not die.
-What was the last thing you cried over?
I don't remember! Isn't that something?!
-Do you actually like going to school?
That is where my boyfriend is during the day, so yes!
-Have you ever felt like you weren't good enough?
For what? For life, no, because no one is good enough. For people, rarely. For things like sports or acting or whatever, all the time.
-Do you have feelings for someone?
I think I have different feelings for everyone. How can you not have feelings?
-Were you in a relationship last Valentines Day?
I was!
-When was the last time you were laughing so hard you could barely breathe?
At dance team practice.
-What is your hair looking like right now?
CURLS!
-What would you do if the person you have feelings for started dating one of your friends to forget about you?
Um, no comment. I don't want to sound melodramatic.
-Who is someone who understands you inside and out?
Miko. He's so nice.
-Are you close to your mother?
I am!
-Have you ever took a picture of you and someone else kissing?
If I'm kissing someone I have never, ever thought "I should take a pic!". Weird.
-Have you ever been to a Britney Spears concert?
No.
-If someone says to you "I don't talk shit about people." would you believe them?
Why would they say that?
-What are you planning on doing after this survey?
Taking a shower. Isn't that so boring?
-Do you miss anybody?
I always miss somebody.
-Did you hug anyone in the last 48 hours?
Yeah! I hugged Renzi a gillion times yesterday (and Miko), I hugged Cynthia and my Mom and the kids in the nursery today.
-Have you consumed alcohol in the past 24 hours?
I have not consumed alcohol in the past 16 years.
-What were you doing at 6am this morning?
Sleepin'.
-What's the last thing you drank?
Tea.
-Is tomorrow gonna be a good day?
Oh yes.
-Where was the last place you went besides your house?
HS.
-What's something you really want right now, be honest?
To wrestle with Miko. Honest.
-Are you currently wanting any piercings or tattoos?
As a matter of fact, I have been planning on putting another tat on my belly.
-Where was the last place you fell asleep other than your own bed?
The Aganon's couch.
-If your last ex said they hated you, you say?
As I previously stated I am without an ex. Hooray!
-Is there a guy that knows everything about you?
Yeah.
-Do you look at the keyboard when you type?
No, I don't have time for that.
-Do you smile everyday?
Yeah. Unless I have severely chapped lips, in which case I would have to try to amend my smile, so as not to make them hurt really bad.
-Is there someone on your mind that shouldn't be?
Uh, no? Weirdo.
-Last item you lost?
My book!
-Can you swim?
Oh yes, my specialty is the sidestroke.
-Ever kissed anyone whose name started with A?
No, but I've kissed someone who's last name started with an A.
-Who was the last person to call you?
M.A.
-Have you seen your best friend cry?
Yep.

It's Vitamin D Awareness Month! Who gets to make this stuff up?

I am really really hoping for a snow day tomorrow. That would be so awesome. We only have school four days this week any way, but I feel so...I don't know. I want to see Miko at school, and tomorrow is my favorite day of classes, but I just don't want to go. Maybe I will kidnap Miko for a day of sledding and hot chocolate, if it happens then I get it all. Yeah, that sounds wonderful.

In other news I burnt rubber today!!! I was on a huge patch of ice at a stop sign, and I was trying to merge with traffic on the straight-away and I tried to go, and I couldn't so I pushed on the pedal harder and I moved like just into the road enough to be hit but I was still stuck. So I got scared and really pushed it down because I did NOT want to die, and the tires spun so hard and then I was off! But I could smell the nasty burn of my brand new, very expensive tires so I didn't know if I should be freaked out that I hurt my tires, or aghast and in awe at how BA burning rubber made me. I still cannot decide.

I would really love some lemonade. The Kool-Aid kind. This is strange, really, because usually I only want Kool-Aid when I'm running in the hotness. I always want Kool-Aid and grape Popsicles. (Popsicle is a very strange word). Also I am craving some chocolate chip cookie dough and ice cream. And some chocolate chip cookies. And hot fudge. Oh man, I am doomed to be so fat. There is simply no way to stave off cravings like that. And I'm not even at a peek-hormonal state of being (for instance, pregnancy or menopause) right now. Yikes.

Lastly, because I need to stop looking at this computer screen before my eye balls fry up, I have been looking at PostSecrets all afternoon. They make me feel...connected with...I don't know exactly what. Other people maybe? Myself? I'm not sure but I like them. They sort of make me a little depressed but mostly I feel really enlightened and it's cool. I have to go now, before I lose my vision. I need a shower and a pee anyway.

I love you!

Today was my first ever introduction to the actual Mock Trial process. Now that I've survived it, I have decided that when you sign up for Mock Trial they should warn you "This will make all people want to be attorneys!!!". I want to be an obstetrician. I have for awhile, for a lot of reasons (more on that later), and I was pretty sure I would never have any interest in law. It always seemed boring. Fun to read about in courtroom novels (JODI PICOULT) but I didn't think the actual process, without all the sha-bang of awesome cases and artistic license, would be very interesting. I have news for that ideology.
IT IS.

There is just something about the perspective analyzation and the word play that just makes me feel awed. Our official competition is Friday and even though I don't think we'll actually win, I am excited. I get to wear professional 'adult' clothes. Yay!

Let's see, what else did I do today? I cleaned my room as the result of an OCD panic attack (not really; think mild version) and then I did some work outs for people with flabby thighs and some sit ups even though mine are actually quite buff.
I ate: Lucky Charms, 2 and 1/2 Krispy Kreme donuts (I know, yikes), half a PB&J sandwich, a banana, some of a granola bar, Fritos, dried fruit and a TV dinner. Which consisted of some potatoes, corn and fried chicken. I need to work on my intake. Not quantity but quality.

In other news, my best friend is so cool. I'd almost refuse to call him my boyfriend, however for the sake of the world I live in, I do. For the extent of this blog though, I won't. Because this blog is for Morgan, and 'boyfriend' is not what he is to me. He just does things that are so darn cool. And he continuously makes me feel so happy and he's good. He's very, very good. Today is our 1 year, 9 month anniversary, as he so adorably pointed out to me. This is weird for me, because for one, I don't ever feel like he wasn't part of my life. He made the rest of it so much less important that I don't feel like he ever wasn't there. On the other hand, sometimes I feel like it was just yesterday that he first told me he loved me. It's very strange, but so perfect.
(God, I'm such a gushy gross mess. Seriously, yuck. I would stab someone with a fork in the eye ball if they were talking to me like this in real life. More realistically I'd walk away. But whatever.)

Oh yeah! Why Morgan Wants to Be an Obstetrician:

Things from Before:
When I was little I didn't have imaginary friends. I had imaginary children. I stayed up at night with them, I put them to bed, I gave them bubble gum. I played delivery with my Barbies. I had a fake magnetic, attachable baby belly. And I made my own NICU. I started watching A Baby Story when I was four. I have always (and...uh...still do) pretended to be performing a surgical procedure on my fried, over-easy eggs. I have to make sure I don't rupture the amniotic sac. I've always wanted a baby. A toddler. An elementary-aged little girl. A teenager. A grown daughter. Grandchildren.
Conclusion: Maternal=Me.

Things from Recently:
Last year, one of my friends got pregnant. Not long after she told me, I started asking her questions about how far along she was and what pre-natal vitamins she was on. What doctor she was seeing, whether or not she'd had an ultra-sound, or had been able to hear the fetal heart beat yet. Her pregnancy got me researching how many milligrams a two week old embryo was. She got me started. I didn't even realize that how much I could potentially love obstetrics until she was pregnant, but it didn't take me long to realize that I could totally do it every day. I am wholly intimidated by med school but then I watch Deliver Me (favorite show!) and I know that it would totally be worth it. Fetal development and devout interest in people are two things that are very important about me. They also happen to be the most important aspects of being an OB.

Plus, not to be cocky or anything but I am soooo on the right track to be able to jump into a pre-med track. I just have coax along my ACT a few more points and I'm in to a really great school! Oh yeah, I still have two more years of high school.
Right.

Miko is about to call and I'm reealllyyy sleepy so...

Goodnight!