BusyBusyBee!

My life is becoming an anxious place to live lately. I'm struggling to compensate for the lost time between my Mock Trial practices and dance team practices (which are ALWAYS AT THE SAME TIME!!).
I'm also really having a super hard time feeling the love from Miko's parents who seem to have purposefully and effectively cut off Miko's connections to me. We have resorted to secret late night IMing which is a little aggravating. It's done one really cool, amazing thing for us though, which is allow us to see and fully appreciate the core strength of our relationship. The lack of communication hasn't strained us at all, which is so cool and impressive! What has really strained ME though, is the flagrant dislike I'm feeling from the whole thing. I've always done everything I could to get along and bond with his mom, because I already have one major parental issue and I don't need anymore. On top of that, I love him enough and am good to him enough that I feel like I deserve to be respected for that, and I'm obviously not. Hmph.

I know I sound kind of whiny and I AM really busy but I'm so happy too. I have someone talk to. I have someone who talks to me. I'm happy the whole day long. So yeah, my grandparents have got my an anxious mess and my boyfriend's mother is less than wonderful to me but I have the things I need to be wonderfully happy. So don't let me fool anyone into thinking anything otherwise. :)