I wish I was more cheerful and less lethargic, but alas.

Miko came over today and we cuddled and kissed and talked and it was wonderful. I relaxed most of the day and watched my favorite episode of Modern Family. I have eaten, so far today, the following:
One old-but-yummy granola bar, two massive pieces of banana bread, some french fries, 3 pizza rolls, way too many jelly beans, and two beef barbecue sandwiches. Not...that bad. I guess.

Last night I went to the movies with Alex, and Katja, and Veronica. We walked into the theater and there were only THREE(!!) other people there. Two of them were teenage girls who looked the OMG WE'RE BFF'S! part. The other, get this, was a man all by himself who did not look femininely inclined and DID look about....forty. I couldn't decide if this was really weird and creepy or really sad. Because what forty year old father figure-ly man would go to the movies at 5 in the evening to see a Nicholas Sparks book portrayed by Miley-freaking-Cyrus? Unless he was suffering psychologically or very very sad. Or a gay man who has yet to come out of the closet. I don't know. I'm still wondering at it.

I don't have much more to say. I have to go to school tomorrow and the next day and then I get have two days off. Hopefully one of those days I will get to do something fun and normal with my boy. He deserves it, and I think I might too. We don't have much longer. I mean that in an only slightly sad way. Mostly I am just gearing down and trying to do it the best I can to get as much time as I can. I will face what I have to face when I have to face it, and if I can't manage I will learn how to. If I can, then I will figure out how to do more than manage. I don't know, I'm just sort of in a weird and bored mood.

I have two track meets before the weekend and I'm starting to hate them. I don't run track to compete. I run track to be fit and healthy and to socialize with people my age. I know that sounds so grandma, but I AM grandma most of the time and it's true. I know I'm not a competitive runner, especially now that I am abstaining from steroid inhalants(my inhaler; it's more fun to say it that way :)). I am running because I don't want to be overweight or develop heart disease, and even though I love my coaches, I HATE how they make the team dependent on me, when I do not place well. But alas, it's still exercise and sometimes my winning personality (bahahaa) is enough to compromise my lack of athletic inclination.

I guess I should go to bed now even though I'm not tired and I can't fall asleep until Miko calls. And South Park is on tonight so it'll be late. Haha, he's worth it. :) Shower time!!

Night!